Monday, December 7, 2009

Otitis Media + Gastroenteritis = Misery


Nate's had ear infections and a sinus infections, but Dave and I agree that until now, he's never really been sick.
I think he's finally getting better.
It started on Thursday with a fever of 102F at day care. Fever came 2 days into a course of antibiotics for a yicky sinus infection that Dave and I finally got tired of wiping off our own clothes and hands. Back to the pediatrician for shiny new antibiotics for his not-so-shiny new ear infection (his fifth in 6 months and the final clue that myrigotomy tubes are in his future). He started to throw up Thursday night. We first attributed it to choking/gagging on the copious snot in his head, but the diarrhea started Friday morning, blowing away that fantasy. He had a fever of 102F or higher from Thursday afternoon to Saturday evening. Tylenol. Motrin. Tylenol. Motrin. Tylenol. Stopped the Motrin 'cause he wasn't peeing and Dr. Mom wanted to save his kidneys.
I'd be ashamed to write down how little he drank, how little he kept in, how few times he peed, and how much came out of every other opening between Friday and Sunday.
On Friday night we were woken by a pitiful mewling. My sweet baby was laying in a little pool of vomit, clothes wet with diarrhea, and nearly smoking with fever. The thermometer confirmed eminent spontaneous combustion - 104.6F. When I did the conversion to Celsius the next morning (40.3C) I realized I had never taken care of someone with a higher fever. I sat in the rocker tired, sweaty, with a naked, stinky, nearly limp baby on my chest and murmured, like a mantra, the "fever talk" I had given to so many other parents in the Emergency Room. It is less reassuring when the child is your own. The fever dropped to 102F and he dropped into restful sleep right before I dropped into panic.
He kept drinking just enough to stay above my IV fluid threshold but never enough that I felt 100% comfortable.
Last night he seemed a lot better. He had no fever. He drank a whole 6 ounces at once and ate his first solid food in days. He motored around the living room smiling and babbling like normal. Still, his ongoing poops made him a day care pariah.
Today, instead of being at the hospital with a floor full of sick oncology patients, I am at home with a borderline febrile, gagging, pooping, fluid refusing, whining baby with the saddest butt in creation. He cries when he poops and he cries when I clean his butt. He cries 'cause he's thirsty and cries when he swallows things into his roiling stomach. He cries when we wipe his wet Rudolph nose. Being at the hospital would be easier.
Still, I do think he's getting better. His last temperature was normal. His last poop stayed in his diaper. he ate and retained a graham cracker and some yogurt.
The drinking and the peeing?
I still don't want to talk about it.
I WILL persevere and he WILL take some liquid. - One teaspoon at a time.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

End of an Era

I took a ticker off the bottom of my page tonight. Likely no one will notice but it makes me a little sad. Before I deleted it, it said "Proud Mommy, Happy Baby - I've been breastfeeding for 9 months, 4 weeks and 2 days". That wasn't completely true. I just deleted it tonight, but Nathan hasn't nursed in about 2 weeks. His teeth were the deciding factor. He stopped biting almost as quick as he started, but those little top teeth just kept causing inadvertent damage. Plus, the supply was way, way down.
He finally started taking formula without much of a fight, but I stubbornly kept pumping my 4-6 ounces per day until his nine month birthday. Then, with a huge sigh of relief, I left the pump behind. I loved feeding my baby but I never loved the pump. I don't believe anyone who says they do.
I gave up the pump and kept the bedtime feedings until he seemed to want volume more than comfort and then, even bedtime became bottle time.
Now, he's learning how to drink out of a cup and he's stopped pulling my shirt down when he's tired or thirsty. Big steps forward in my little man's life. I honestly miss my tiny baby curled up on my chest but I my active explorer doesn't give me much time to look backwards. Gotta keep looking one step ahead of him to keep him out of harms way.

Thanksgiving #2

On the Saturday after Thanksgiving I finally had the day off and got a chance to cook the traditional holiday feast. Dave's parents were there as were our friend Emily and Dave and their baby Samone, but somehow with the cooking, the baby carrying, the Bellini drinking, and the eating 'til our buttons popped I only managed to get pictures of Dave with his turkey.


Before it went on the grill.


And after. (Try a grilled turkey sometime. It was delicious, and I didn't have to do anything with it!)
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Thanksgiving #1


Nathan crawls, yes, honest to goodness crawling, around friends Ann and Dave's house on Thanksgiving afternoon.


He enjoys a pre-dinner carrot snack while hanging out in the kitchen (where else do people congregate?)


After dinner things got a little weird when Cecilia tried to pants Nathan and we all laughed and took pictures


And we ended the evening with a little snuggle.

We ate Ann's first turkey (way better than my first was), gorged ourselves on delicious stuffing (Nate's favorite), and topped it all off with a tasty pie. Considering I worked a lot of the day it turned out to be quite a lovely holiday.
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Saturday, October 24, 2009

Sleeping Beauty

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Fiber Deficiency?

"How are you socks supposed to keep your toes warm if they are in your mouth?"

I said that a lot yesterday.

I never used to put socks on him. Didn't see the point in warm muggy weather. But in the last 2 weeks it has been cold, and whenever his clothes don't have feet, I've been pulling on some fuzzy socks.
He's been pulling them off.
He almost seems enraged by them, grunting and yelling until they are off his feet. He pulls them off with his teeth, then he wads them up and puts them in his mouth.

Yum.

This leaves me with a dilemma. Naked toes or wet socks?
Doesn't matter what I decide because as soon as I turn my back, naked toes prevail.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Bravery

Cold weather has come early to Pittsburgh, as, I suppose, it is to the rest of the country.

I was driving home from work, cold rain on the windshield, thinking about whether I would make it to day care on time and petulantly contemplating the failure of my car heater to adequately warm my toes in the completely non-sensible shoes I was wearing.

That's when I saw her.

A determined mom pushing a stroller full of groceries with one hand, holding an umbrella with the other, and carrying on her chest a blanket covered baby carrier with a little pair of pink fleece feet swinging as she walked.

I was struck by how much strength it took this woman to decide to go out in the weather, shield her child from the elements, in the pursuit of getting food for her family. I could feel the agony of needing things and yet worrying with every step about keeping her fragile baby safe. I wondered how she would be able to get everything on and off the bus. I wondered if she had anyone to help her out at home.

There are things in my life that are hard, but my day to day activities are so blessed. I go to the market in a car that affords me the luxury of wearing strappy shoes in freezing rain. My baby is always warm and dry unless I screw up. My husband carries the groceries.